A Little Girl’s Letter to Jesus

I have transcribed this letter from a video with Russ Dizdar and David Heavener. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=detGrYXpFas

“I can’t imagine how you must feel, Jesus. I can’t imagine the pain and anguish you experience as you see the many, many little girls and boys being sexually victimised in the most horrible ways.

I can’t imagine how it angers you when the people that do these things are those who look good on the outside and claim to be your children. I can’t imagine how you must feel when people who claim your name turn their backs on such sin and crime; and refuse to bring such sin to light.

Jesus, sometimes I wonder, how can you let it go on? How long, oh Lord?

But then I remember that you are merciful to all. You desperately want those perpetrators to come to the end of themselves and fall at your feet in true repentance for their sin.

I forget sometimes that you are sovereign; that you are merciful; that you are in control of it all; and that someday, it will be made right.

Oh Father, I pray for the victims. The innumerable little girls and boys, the teenagers who are being sold for sex. May you send the right people to guide them to you. May they know your love; may they realise how much you care about them. May they find healing and rest in you. May they find protection from the enemy of their souls; may they make that hard decision to take responsibility for the response to the abuse. May they forgive and not become bitter.

I pray that you would raise them up and someday their pain would be used to help other little boys and girls. I pray for the parents and church leaders of the victims. I pray that you would raise up people that would realise the implications of abuse and how it destroys a person.

I pray that you would give them wisdom in relating to these broken children and you. I pray that if they have been abused themselves, and have sought help, that they would be willing to work through their own pain I pray that you would break the chains of generational abuse in my hometown and the surrounding communities.

I pray that there could be freedom and healing and that it would come only from you.

And, lastly, Jesus, I pray for the perpetrators.

I pray that they would come to the end of themselves. I pray that it would happen in this life, and not in the next. I pray for their souls. I pray that you would have mercy on them. I pray that their evil deeds would be exposed now and not at judgement day.

Oh, Jesus, have mercy please.

They need you just as I need you.

Oh, God, please send the right people their way to take them by the hand, and to lead them to you. I pray for repentance and restorations for them. I pray for a Godly sorrow that would lead to repentance.

I know you care, Jesus. And I thank you so much that you are working behind the scenes.

Thank you, Father.

Amen”

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Healing family

This week I have been confronted with some of the demons from the past.

My 25 year old daughter ‘reminded’ me – ‘reminded’ because I had blocked it, or not been in a place to hear it correctly at that time, about being interfered with by one of her siblings when she was a child. She rightly believes that this has played a major role in her life to date. She said that I told her, at the time, that children explore their bodies in such ways when they are growing up – which I do believe, but that doesn’t stop us making it a shameful experience.

It left me feeling that I had not done enough to protect her, being a working mother of five – four boys and one daughter. I have felt that for a long time. She chose to distance herself from me at a very young age; and, while usually we have a civil relationship, it is obviously one of facade. She is prone to rage and sadness at the slightest glitch in support of her.

So, the questions remain: Am I a bad mother? How do I go about healing – the relationship and my daughters’ self-esteem? Is it my job now that she is grown?

The answers are: All mothers have their own injuries that make them behave and parent in a less than ‘good parent’ way. We are too focused on our own needs rather than putting our energies into the people who depend on them for their nurturing.

I can go about repairing our relationship, and consequently show her the way to healing, by my example; and then by the results she can see and feel.

Because I believe that this earth existence is just the start of our soul’s journey, we have an eternity to continue to grow and heal with a firm desire to live in love. Face what needs to be faced and allow what comes to indicate to us what we need to repair or embrace. Our lives will give us that gift if we allow and accept.

If I had not denied my own damage then there would not have been that imprint left on her, and she would not now be confused and frightened by where her life is taking her; she would not be going about damaging herself and others in her approaches to relationship; and would be more gentle and loving, strong, secure and encouraged by her existence. So, yes, it is my job to ensure that I can do all that I can to assist, not only her, but myself, to go through the process of forgiving and repenting all things that have been buzzing around me for the entirety of my existence.

Not only do I owe it to her, I also owe it to my son who’s behaviour as a young age would have left him ashamed and confused. I believe that it has left him arrogant in an attempt to hide the less powerful emotions in the belief that this is what he needs to do to have the life he thinks he wants – that society tells him he deserves.

Of course we deserve a wonderful life but we need to do the work to make it so. And we are told by society that having whatever we want, and doing whatever it takes to get it is the only way to go – no matter the effects on other people around us – even our children.

You can see how this sort of selfish, arrogant behaviour will continually perpetuate this same damage into generations to come – causing crushing effects on body, mind and soul.

The time is now to do the work and strive towards an existence that is hugely beneficial to, not only our loved ones, but to the world as a whole.

Go with God. I have for some time now and have benefited greatly.

FORGIVE

Forgive from your heart
Let It heal your life
Nothing can hold you
Like a fair bit of strife

The hardest to get through
Are the things that We do
Known only by us
Yet they can still puss

They fester and grow
And live on all the while
With each new day.
It gets harder to smile

Your greatness is here now
Lets show them all how
When love is involved
Much can be solved

The love that you are
Lays buried deep inside
Just waiting for the hate to subside

Loved ones cannot help you
Only you can mend
All the hurt and despair that you still defend

Your spirit is calling
For you to be free
Forgiveness is golden
And I’m sure you’ll agree
There is nothing nicer
That you’d like to be

So forgive and move on now
And then you will see
All the good things that life brings
Known to more than just me


The players have been played

Warning, it starts off a bit rough but
well worth the look. It's times like
these I like to shout-out the co-creation!
Plus I think I've been watching too much
Owen Benjamin. Thanks Owen - and I mean that
sincerely.

We are the revolution!
We are the ones who rule!
We will not be beaten!
So fuck off you big fat tool!

What’s that you say, you dickhead
You really are a fool!
Why should we even consider
All that shit that you do drool!

Wait, what happened to my Youtube!
The one with all my shit
Someone’s playing games with me
I’m taking a big, bloody hit!

It’s all a load of bullshit
The stuff I put out there
Can’t you take a joke, mate
You’ve got me pulling out my hair!

I’m taking a closer look now
At what that dickhead said.
He said we’ve all been played;
Lied to; messing with our heads!

The game is one we’re used to
Of lies and manip-u-lation
We take their cues and work it
To hide our agitation

We can’t control the world out there
We hide behind our screens
Thinking we are better
Than everyone, it seems

So, he says to pull together
And let’s all get un-schooled
We can all be on the same side
And then we won’t be ruled

They can’t take away our sovereignty;
Our love; Our care and charity
Our patience; and our kindness
And, especially, empathy

Empathy can guide us
And keep us free from domination
Give us back our freedom
And get a well-deserved vac-a-tion

We think we rule the play
It couldn’t be further from the truth.
If we all choose to know more;
And never be aloof
We can all become aware
And find ourselves the proof.

If we just accept what we are told;
And fear we will be swayed
Then you can all expect
That us players will be played.

Max Igen - Everything is a lie

He Is Come — Notes Along The Way

Then, there is loveAnd the taste of lifelike wild honey on my tongueSweet, fragrant and intense,An exotic, unnamed song Untested, bold horizons begin to clap against my eyesEnchanted sunlit gardens Dawning, dappled skies A world revealed, existingalongside human misery and shame,Eternal, always offeredshould we just release all pain The promise of our futureis greater than […]

via He Is Come — Notes Along The Way

For Jeffrey

I met Jeffrey for a short time recently when we attended Graham’s 50th birthday celebration.

I found him to be a very gentle soul but I could detect the trouble that lay within, as it does with the majority of us in one form or another.  Sometimes when we’re not being authentic to the soul God created, we can get lost to the darker thoughts that we catch when we least expect them.

I urge you to hold onto the belief that Jeffrey isn’t lost to you or us.

He still exists in another form and dimension that we can’t quite understand or appreciate.

We get trapped in the teachings from this planet which can lead to what we’re facing in Jeffrey’s current situation.

It is my firm belief that Jeffrey will be allowed to rest and convalesce for a time before he will need to face his demons once again and continue to attempt to reach higher limits of appreciation and acceptance of self and others.

We can help him with the earnest and loving belief that everyone can, and will, heal the damage we’ve denied with our desires to do so for ourselves – the cord that connects us cannot be broken. It’s just a matter of how long we defend all of our hurt and make it a part of us instead of embracing it’s ability to indicate our ‘sins’ – meaning simply “missing the mark”, in this context “missing the mark of love” (God’s love,  not human love) and choose to acknowledge and release.

It’s a powerful gift we can give to, not only our nearest and dearest, and ourselves, but in fact, the entire universe.

I am comforted in my knowledge that when we let God in and walk the narrow path he has created for us all things can rapidly progress to a state beyond Nirvana – something most think of as the ultimate location.

This is a poem that I created with the friends that surround me and assist me to weather the storms in my own life.  I’d like to share it in the hope that all can find solace in the words and in the hope that the woes that caused Jeffrey to such desperation will never again darken the doors of those we love or anyone that exists today on this earth.

LET GOD IN

In the darkest of our hours
In the ever changing light
Let God’s Love embrace you
Let His guidance be your sight

Among all the struggling souls
On this world and the next
Let God’s Grace restore you
From all things hexed

There is within our being
A light that shines forlorn
Waiting for the wisdom within us
To be nurtured and reborn

In every ounce of trouble
There’s a clue to who we are
Leading onto greatness
That’s so near and yet so far

I invite the ever present
I invite the yet unclear
I invite the many masters
To stay close and to be near

Let’s kick this evolution
That we all can feel is naught
Not conducive to the outcome
For which we have been taught

It’s just a fleeting moment
It’s coming to that place
Where we can all delight
In all things that we face

Face off bad emotions
Kick them firmly out the door
Don’t let them keep us bounded
To things we want no more

Let us prepare the welcome;
Realise our sin;
Put a smile upon our dial;
And Let God In!

Getting into prayer

Just wanted to share a collage I put together with information from a talk by Pastor Rick Warren from Saddleback Ministries (Link to 40 days of prayer) that I thought was helpful.  Sometimes we get to the end of the day and we realise we haven’t spent a moment in prayer. Doh!  This simple link is making the association with things we know well – The Lord’s Prayer and relevant times of day. Also the cute memes might help to jog your memory too 🙂

Our father who is in heaven…..
1. Get up with gratitude – thanksgiving

Hallowed be your name
2. Bless god’s name at breakfast – praise

May your kingdom come, thy will be done
3. Take a prayer break during the morning about what matters most – dedication. I align myself with God’s plan for life and myself

Give us this day my daily bread
4. Lunch – list my needs – petition. Anything. Ask for what others need too – intersession.

And forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us
5. Mid-afternoon – ask for forgiveness (taking out the garbage). Admit your sins and forgive others.

And lead us not into temptation, and deliver us from evil
6. End of day. Ask god to help you make wise decisions.

For yours is the kingdom, and the power and the glory, forever and ever.
7. Bedtime – I end my day with an encouraging truth – Benediction.

Amen.

Good night Lord, I’ll see you in the morning.

 

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