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Healing family

This week I have been confronted with some of the demons from the past.

My 25 year old daughter ‘reminded’ me – ‘reminded’ because I had blocked it, or not been in a place to hear it correctly at that time, about being interfered with by one of her siblings when she was a child. She rightly believes that this has played a major role in her life to date. She said that I told her, at the time, that children explore their bodies in such ways when they are growing up – which I do believe, but that doesn’t stop us making it a shameful experience.

It left me feeling that I had not done enough to protect her, being a working mother of five – four boys and one daughter. I have felt that for a long time. She chose to distance herself from me at a very young age; and, while usually we have a civil relationship, it is obviously one of facade. She is prone to rage and sadness at the slightest glitch in support of her.

So, the questions remain: Am I a bad mother? How do I go about healing – the relationship and my daughters’ self-esteem? Is it my job now that she is grown?

The answers are: All mothers have their own injuries that make them behave and parent in a less than ‘good parent’ way. We are too focused on our own needs rather than putting our energies into the people who depend on them for their nurturing.

I can go about repairing our relationship, and consequently show her the way to healing, by my example; and then by the results she can see and feel.

Because I believe that this earth existence is just the start of our soul’s journey, we have an eternity to continue to grow and heal with a firm desire to live in love. Face what needs to be faced and allow what comes to indicate to us what we need to repair or embrace. Our lives will give us that gift if we allow and accept.

If I had not denied my own damage then there would not have been that imprint left on her, and she would not now be confused and frightened by where her life is taking her; she would not be going about damaging herself and others in her approaches to relationship; and would be more gentle and loving, strong, secure and encouraged by her existence. So, yes, it is my job to ensure that I can do all that I can to assist, not only her, but myself, to go through the process of forgiving and repenting all things that have been buzzing around me for the entirety of my existence.

Not only do I owe it to her, I also owe it to my son who’s behaviour as a young age would have left him ashamed and confused. I believe that it has left him arrogant in an attempt to hide the less powerful emotions in the belief that this is what he needs to do to have the life he thinks he wants – that society tells him he deserves.

Of course we deserve a wonderful life but we need to do the work to make it so. And we are told by society that having whatever we want, and doing whatever it takes to get it is the only way to go – no matter the effects on other people around us – even our children.

You can see how this sort of selfish, arrogant behaviour will continually perpetuate this same damage into generations to come – causing crushing effects on body, mind and soul.

The time is now to do the work and strive towards an existence that is hugely beneficial to, not only our loved ones, but to the world as a whole.

Go with God. I have for some time now and have benefited greatly.

FORGIVE

Forgive from your heart
Let It heal your life
Nothing can hold you
Like a fair bit of strife

The hardest to get through
Are the things that We do
Known only by us
Yet they can still puss

They fester and grow
And live on all the while
With each new day.
It gets harder to smile

Your greatness is here now
Lets show them all how
When love is involved
Much can be solved

The love that you are
Lays buried deep inside
Just waiting for the hate to subside

Loved ones cannot help you
Only you can mend
All the hurt and despair that you still defend

Your spirit is calling
For you to be free
Forgiveness is golden
And I’m sure you’ll agree
There is nothing nicer
That you’d like to be

So forgive and move on now
And then you will see
All the good things that life brings
Known to more than just me


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God give me strength

I am writing today, God, weary of trying to understand how the needs of a grown adult are more important than basic care and emotional nurturing of, not only a small child, but also a child with disabilities can be allowed to flourish in my experience. The adult can make decisions on how they choose to live, think and grow while the child is totally at the mercy of the person who is afforded the privilege of assisting them to be the perfect human being that You intended them to be.

There is no-one so damaged that they cannot reach out to you, God, ask for Your assistance and allow for the inflow of pure love and upliftment that will be shared. Of course, we think that this magically takes away all the pain and errors that life has presented to us. The magic is in the experiencing; the magic is in the unfolding; the magic is in the coming to light of all things possible.

But this is a choice afforded to the older wiser beings, not the young. The young must be nurtured and taught to foster their desires and love; they must be led in a way that enables them to express and experience for themselves the organic delights of this world and make their own magic happen.

The ‘responsible’ adult must therefore have the desire to be that person for them. That person who will make sure that their own emotional state is such that they can support them fully in their desires; loving them in such a way that the only influence that will be exerted will be that of assurance in the fact that they are not required to do anything at this time except be delighted and adored; and trust that God’s Laws are here to wrap them in His mighty fold.

I know the process, God. Give me the strength to come to terms with what is happening; help me to plug the holes in my soul that are contributing to my own experience and that of others around me. Make me brand new again in your love; and know with certainty that this earth world is somehow bringing me to that place. That place of understanding; the place of acknowledgement that we humans are the greatest of your creations and able to rise to a level of awareness far greater than we can possibly imagine in our current thinking.

Abracadabra – let me create – an experience of great upliftment that sees this awareness resonate throughout the human intellects and activate the struggling souls of humanity to a place of serene peace.

I thank you for your assistance once again today as I experience your loving warmth permeating throughout my body; soothing and assuring me that, with my desire firmly set to make manifest a world of complete harmony and love, all is well; and all can be achieved if we hold our faith firm and not allow our focus to be diverted. That’s how the magic happens, with knowing minds and the desire to grow in love.

Living in harmony with Love and Truth

Newsflash….. The road to Truth and love merely require dedication.

When I talk of Truth and love I speak of it in the absolute sense, God’s Absolute Truth and Love. God’s Laws use simplistic ideas and were created before God’s Children ever existed. They work as the framework to maintain a harmonious effect on the universe. We see the opposite effect – living out of harmony with God’s Laws – in the world that we live in at this time – to a large extent.

A world out of harmony with love is one where only the few, seem to, ‘prosper’ and the others are left struggling and hoping. There is no need for struggle and hope, just a dedication and honouring of love and Truth; through our humility.

God’s Laws are simple and pure; simple enough for a child to understand and follow.

LIFE

Life’s an experience
I’m sure that you know
But how do we continue to grow?

By living a life
So live it right now
Not tomorrow or Wednesday
Right now that is how

How to be free from the concerns that we show?
They really really really must go

They ground us and hold us
From greater pursuits
They even can have us all dressed up in suits!

Suits to suit others
Not ours at all
When will we ever remember the call

The call to our greatness
That’s really all

This time like no-other
Can help you relate
To having a go at the things that can’t date

Like laughing and crying
And smiling too
These are worthwhile things to pursue

Take a look at a child
And then you will know
This is the very thing we should sow

Sow in some fun
Some happiness and love
Mix it all in
And don’t use a glove!

Get down and get dirty
From this day till the next
Then maybe we won’t be so perplexed

An open letter to all governments and regimes around the world

<Please copy and send to as many people of interest and places that you can think of…much love and many blessings.>
 AN OPEN LETTER TO ALL GOVERNMENTS AND REGIMES AROUND THE WORLD
Humanity is special.  You are human, we are human, we are all human beings.
It is time for the love of our humanity to be embraced. There is no person and especially no thing greater than we or another being of humanity.
The broader sense of humanity includes all natural things in our biosphere, but at this time we are focusing only on the deliberate and blind neglect of men, women and children living in war torn and poverty stricken environments and those who seek shelter from such conflict and neglect.
We can all agree that there are unacceptable behaviours and conditions happening around the world for those that have to live in such…we cannot even call them communities. We would certainly not wish for any of our direct family or friends to have to endure such vile restrictions to the freedom that every being has the right to expect and indeed enjoy.
It is time for all governments to denounce commercial interests and huge egos and create the world that we wish to see all children move towards. We have a responsibility to the new generations of evolving humans by way of forgiving and nurturing so that the perpetual motion of hate, revenge and selfishness can be something that can be extinguished.
These things are possible, as we have seen in our history, and we would ask that those of power and influence at this time come forward and ensure that another human being is not permitted to suffer injustices and tribulations; especially on the scale that we are constantly seeing in our media; and that war between the human race ceases to exist.
We thank you for your urgent response to our request and know that deep in your hearts and with your will this greatness can be achieved.
With love and blessings
<insert name here>

Mothers

Blessed are the mothers whose wombs can create
a sanctuary so special that life is their fate.
This life is amazing as nothing else is
Why have You been chosen from “all that there is”?

The choices made are not light or not glib
These children have chosen the path where they live
And know that their fate is assured in your heart
No matter what happens they will never part

Not part from the blessing that caused them to be
Not part from the spirit that wants to be free
Not part from the love that is felt deep inside
Not part from the parts that can make them hide

The pains an illusion which surely they feel
All the love that surrounds them that will help them to heal
A mother can never exist all alone
While her child is out questing for that thing of their own

Sit quietly, quietly….steady and sure
That all of your hopes and desires are pure
They radiate distances so far and so wide
Which reminds me to tell you that we are all on your side

Our universe exists as a playground for all
We must remember that even if we should fall
There is in our lives a chorus of love
Singing our praises…. and to give us a shove

Remind us all swiftly the part that we play
Can be minor or major but remains to this day
A reflection of just how far we have come
In the resounding orchestration of one

We are one with our children
As we are one with the earth.
The earth that supports us if we can just be
Be happy and centered……just like a tree!

Stand proud and don’t waver
As it’s all in our favour
Hold true and be steady for times that seem tough
And know you are surely enough

Enough for the children
To feel nurture and love
Enough for the universe so high up above
Enough to be ready to feel and delight
Every second of grandeur with all of our might

Mothers are special
And this you should know
As a child of another who has helped you to grow

You’re playing the part of a lifetime right now
And You are writing the script as to how
The production is worth it
So stay with the show
We are all here with you as we watch it all grow!