fulfillment

No Dams!

Hi darling.  I have been inspired to put pen to paper once again (or it’s electronic equivalent ) in an effort to make more obvious things that I believe and that I feel can also be of benefit to you.  

The reason that I think it is hard, frustrating, or whatever arises, when we get together with our families is because we live in patterns from our childhoods that we know are not loving so we never give up trying to get the love right.  

Unfortunately we don’t really have a plan about how we’re going to do that so we revert back to the same behaviours with the same results.  They get worse over time because the universe is also involved in the process and more and more intense situations will often yield a movement of some kind.  Not the best way to go about it but it is the usual way.  

Having expectations of someone else and even ourselves is also adding to the unlovingness of the situation but we all do that as well. 

Just so you know, I firmly believe it’s best dealt with by going with the emotion and express it until it’s conclusion and ultimately release it. You will travel often from rage or anger to grief and/or fear.  Direct it outwards but not at anyone… even if the cause of your angst is sitting right in front of you. (Of course you can mention the issue….  “you know mum,  you have never loved me “, etc. )

I have these things as well with my parents and siblings. Issue after issue keeps rearing it’s ugly head and I push it aside believing in my “soul” – otherwise I’d do it differently – that discussing it is only bringing up things that are better left buried.  The universe (to me that’s God) doesn’t think so, that’s why the same issues remain in my experience. 

Our dreams and sometimes sleepstate experiences can help us realise the issues that we are trying to bury. The problem is we can’t ever really bury them. Only kick a bit of dirt on them which tends to make them more agrivated the next time they come up. Sure,  we get better at our facade to hide them but that’s just the face of it…  not the guts. They will spew out or make this physical vessel not so well. 

You can try to keep a dream journal. (I  keep telling myself to do that as well.)

Do you see how our patterns can hold us back from our progression?

I see you working on your progression and I think you are very brave.  The problem ones are the early early childhood experiences and inherited emotions that you don’t have a developed memory of because of your age when they occurred and the fact that some may not be yours.  You’ve just built on them and you can’t even understand why or where they’ve come from. That’s why you can’t do this intellectually, it has to be emotionally. 

Listen to the messages from people around you…  There are clues everywhere.  If you think it’s a loving message… and I’m not talking about an addictive false-praising, manipulative or co-dependant message… then think more on it.  I also pray to God for guidance and ask my spirit friends and guides for assistance…  but that’s me. 

A loving message might be “you need to look after yourself “. A manipulative/co-dependent message might be “don’t listen to them,  you deserve a drink. ”

The first one seems like judgement, and the second one seems caring.  However, the first is simply a fact and the second doesn’t really help at all even though it would appear to be supportive. 

Anyway I’ll finish off there and know that I  appreciate your frankness and care that you show.  I see your humility shining through and feel that humility will be the thing that keeps you open to learning more and progressing in the most positive way. 

It pains me to know that our lives can impact yours greatly but I can only reiterate my sentiments again that no good can be achieved from upsetting yourself with things outside of your “control” (if I can use that word!) – outside of yourself. That doesn’t mean to push down the emotions when they come up but ask why they have come up at this time, in this situation.  Relate it back or at least just feel through it. Magic will happen. 

Life is ebbing and flowing as it always will and pushing against it is useless my dear. This is where being in situations in families can help to show where the blockages are to your flow. 

All my love that I am capable of today I send to you.  Xxx 

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Maneauver….manoeuvre??

Doesn’t matter how you spell it, you can’t do it in God’s Way of progressing.

[01:00:42.15] Mary: Isn’t it like in a lot of relationships – even father, daughter relationships; or partner relationships, we figure out how to maneauver around that person. ‘Aw, I’ll just tell dad this’, or ‘I’ll just stroke their ego this way, and then I’ll get what I want’. Yeah.

[01:00:58.23] A.J.: And many of us then come to think of God as the same thing; that we can maneauver around all God’s Laws. If my dad was a pretty hard guy and I could maneauver around him, then God’s a much easier guy, so I should be able to maneauver my way around him pretty easy. And it’s completely the opposite to that actually, God’s not a harsh person, but God has drawn the line in the sand; and that’s what law is; that’s what God’s Law is. And that’s what he’s basically saying here, we need to come to understand, actually, that there is the one way to get to God; and that’s the one law that God has stated is the only way to get to God; and there is no other way available to you; and you can try (laughs); you can try to get there without using the way, or the key that God has given you; and all you are is a thief and a robber, but you won’t be able to thieve or rob anything because even that’s not possible (laughs) on The Way.

So, I just feel if most people on earth understood that, then there would be far more less focus on their religious pursuits, and their individual scientific pursuits; and we’d start to see everything much more collectively, as there is this way – determined by nature, actually; and nature being of God’s creation means that it’s determined by God and God’s Laws as to how we need to grow. And if we refuse to grow in the way that God has designed, then we won’t grow; it’s as simple as that. We might have different experiences; we might move from side to side; it’s like, moving from one relationship to another relationship that’s identical is just a side-to-side shift. It’s not a real progression of the soul, nor is it a progression of your enjoyment or your happiness or any other state you might enjoy in your soul; and we need to start seeing it like that, as well. And we need to start seeing many of us are just going from experience to experience to experience; and really, repeating the same experiences over and over again, because we’re refusing true development of the soul. We’re refusing God’s Way.

Two Lost Souls

This is the tale of two lost souls.

One of these souls spent their entire life in limbo waiting
for the precise moment of joy to appear.

The other lost soul cried into the wind “Why am I so alone in
the world! I do fear?”

These souls lamented throughout their existence…
They wanted joy.
They wanted love.
They wanted happiness.
And they wanted “someone” to provide it for them.

Their days were long.
Their hearts were empty.
Their songs were sad.
And they wanted “someone” to fix it for them.

The day finally came when they could bear it no more.
Desperately they sobbed … “who there can help me!”
And the answer appeared as clearly and crisply as I’m
relating to you. From out of the ether came a thought that
rang true “Take back your power… the answer is you!”

So much weight was lifted that day and they became giddy and
felt light on their feet….as each of us should. They moved
slowly with only joy in their hearts. Smelling the flowers
and talking to trees. Saying “I love you” to all that they
could.

Their joy seemed contagious and so …..When these souls
collided there was only reflection of all that they felt and into each others arms they did melt!

To this day they continue to carry the torch and tell all a story
so sweet. It is the most amazing tale of two lost souls and
how they did meet.

REMEMBER

You have chosen to come forth and to assist humanity

To be strong and free

And to love unconditionally

Remember

Somewhere along the way you got sucked into the trappings, rules and confusion that we have created for ourselves as a species.

You are not your job, you are not your car, you are not your house.

You just are.  That is enough.

Remember

Feel the enoughness of it

Sit and relish how good it feels

Be thankful for the experiences that you have had – they are bringing you back to you.

Remember

You have my love – but you don’t need it.

You are pure love and, if you allow it, the love that you are will be reflected back to you over and over again.

Have no expectations, goals or insistence on anything having to be a certain way at a certain time – from inside or outside of you.

Just be.

Remember

When you feel despair – sit and acknowledge it.

“I see you despair but I am moving on now.  You had me in your power but I am ready to go.

Maybe I feel guilt and unworthiness today but I know that I am much more than that.

Jealousy can eat at my very soul and send me into hatred and rage.  Thoughts of revenge keep me company for many nights but I know that anger is not a place for me to be.

The discouragement that I feel is enormous and so I reach for something or someone to blame.

The worries come crashing in closely followed by doubt and disappointment.

I move on regardless…..to overwhelmment.

But this cannot stop me from feeling frustration and impatience with this game.

I am achieving the peace that I crave as the boredom too wears at my soul.

I am sitting quietly and long……then here comes contentment and I feel more hopeful and optimistic.  The positive beliefs that I feel more and more brings on enthusiasm with a passion for knowledge, joy, appreciation, love and freedom.”

Remember

Mothers

Blessed are the mothers whose wombs can create
a sanctuary so special that life is their fate.
This life is amazing as nothing else is
Why have You been chosen from “all that there is”?

The choices made are not light or not glib
These children have chosen the path where they live
And know that their fate is assured in your heart
No matter what happens they will never part

Not part from the blessing that caused them to be
Not part from the spirit that wants to be free
Not part from the love that is felt deep inside
Not part from the parts that can make them hide

The pains an illusion which surely they feel
All the love that surrounds them that will help them to heal
A mother can never exist all alone
While her child is out questing for that thing of their own

Sit quietly, quietly….steady and sure
That all of your hopes and desires are pure
They radiate distances so far and so wide
Which reminds me to tell you that we are all on your side

Our universe exists as a playground for all
We must remember that even if we should fall
There is in our lives a chorus of love
Singing our praises…. and to give us a shove

Remind us all swiftly the part that we play
Can be minor or major but remains to this day
A reflection of just how far we have come
In the resounding orchestration of one

We are one with our children
As we are one with the earth.
The earth that supports us if we can just be
Be happy and centered……just like a tree!

Stand proud and don’t waver
As it’s all in our favour
Hold true and be steady for times that seem tough
And know you are surely enough

Enough for the children
To feel nurture and love
Enough for the universe so high up above
Enough to be ready to feel and delight
Every second of grandeur with all of our might

Mothers are special
And this you should know
As a child of another who has helped you to grow

You’re playing the part of a lifetime right now
And You are writing the script as to how
The production is worth it
So stay with the show
We are all here with you as we watch it all grow!

Chanting…..revelation….revelation

Holy cow, pig, goat….whatever…..I just realised that my “poems” are in fact chants!  Still buzzing.  Could just be my truth but I had to share. Go to that place deep inside and let it rip/pulsate/sing/tone 🙂

Foods-For-Life

This begins my research and knowledge of  Foods-For-Life.  I have always been interested in good food and nutrition and even so it has been hard in this fast paced world to dedicate myself to leaning towards the healthy rather than the convenient.

Being the mother of 5 children I have diligently worked to stay on track and adhere to the principals and foods that I know we should be eating – what our bodies want and need to sustain us until our eventual demise.  I would suggest giving yourself a break and do the best that you can.  The trouble with us human beings is we think that we deserve a “big” break…we just deserve.  And we do, but don’t rely on others to give to you, bring it about yourself.  I think that we all know instinctively what is right and wrong for our bodies – we can’t cop out on society and governments for not teaching us properly or presenting us with the right choices anymore.  We know.  What are we going to do about it?  We are a consumer driven society in case you hadn’t noticed.

What I have found over the years is that when we are eating nutritional foods we don’t need as much.  We are satiated/satisfied for longer.  Nibbling on nuts and only having healthy foods at our disposal are just some of the ways to go about it.  The picture above is my little lunch bag that I have with me at all time.  (I especially like it because it is made of recycled waste collected by Jakarta’s Trash Pickers).  I just put an ice brick in it and fill it with nuts, fruit, a sandwich, yoghurt, Roobos teabags, healthy treats (yoghurt covered fruit & nut bites are my favourite).  Sometimes curried egg, leftovers from last nights dinner, and green smoothies.  A can of sardines, a salad with apple and walnuts….brown paper packages tied up with string…..these are a few of my favourite things.  Hahahaha

I am putting together this series so that I can slowly,  surely and firmly implant into my wisdom health, food and medicinal values of the various foods, herbs, spices and even water.  Extending to how we can grow them to be the most flavoursome and high in nutritional value.  I invite you along for the journey 🙂

I hope you enjoy and maybe gain some valuable knowledge – it is going to be very important in the coming years and decades that we take control of our destinies and our bodies are going to play a pivotal part.  We need to be alert, awake, empowered which brings happiness – the thing that is going to create the world that we would like our future generations to live in.  It is a small ask.

As always I have a poem that covers this topic.  Much love.

WHEN MOTHER CALLS

Feel the wind in your hair
And the sun on your face
Consider this
Mother natures embrace

The grass is all green now
The sky is all blue
The stars in the sky
Say, boy I love you!

From sun up till sun down
And right through the night
Our mother adores us
Never gives up the fight

The fight for our well-being
The fight for our life
But She cuts to the chase
When she feels there is strife

She reminds us all harshly
So we won’t forget
When a community falters
With deep regret

Take heed for the future
For all the new souls
Being born to our loved ones
And their future goals

Mother earth needs to be nurtured
The same way you do
So unite in the fight
To see our way through