poetry

Love, cuppa and Lentil Pie

Darling, I thank you for your continued tutelage as you give me the opportunity to grow in my spirit through conversation and experimentation with thoughts, values and my responses, energetically, to those. We shared a lot of that yesterday afternoon in one of our favourite spots.

When we began I was trepidatious – not wanting to enter the arena of perceived judgement and vulnerability. We’ve been there way too many times and I had decided that I was out – I needed to find a new direction where I could grow my ideas and values without offending loved ones or disappointing myself with the suppression of my spirit; and to allow continued, barely disguised, facades to stay in place – enabling our unit to continue without real challenge and thereby without growth.

I have to say that I am a pleaser; an organiser; someone who values family above all other – or I was. I will now be the pleased; I will organise according to God’s Laws; and family now are those who choose to be in alignment with those values. I am prepared to let-go my stranglehold on all that I once found sacred.

To be honestly honest, a lot of my continued involvement came from a place of not getting it right – not leading and loving the way I know, in my heart of hearts, it should have been. I’m still not there, but I can’t get there from a stuck place and surrounding myself with the same deterrents that I have always allowed to invade my unconscious self. Soothing and attempting to control my fate.

It’s all in God’s hands and the more I interfere, the longer it will take. It’s not making me happy and the evidence that it is not serving the purpose I have been working towards is obvious.

Our conversation took us to many places and I have realised that I am prepared to let go of a lot of my opinions – especially as they pertain to others, which, in the end, do not mean a lot for my life – they’re just opinions and opinions change.

I am more interested in working towards developing my resonance with knowledge – tapping into the steady flow of consciousness generously provided by God to all of his children. The conversations can happen still, but, in so much as, they will be learning tools to indicate to me areas that I need to work on for the benefit of my soul and how it reflects on all other things in God’s Universe.

I don’t believe that this information will please you greatly, and I will be, no doubt, thought of as someone going through a crisis – and you would be right. A crisis of the soul. I know that this determination will ultimately lead to much better results than the previous, not working at all, one did.

I look forward to sharing one of those Lentil Curry Pies with you very soon.

All my love. Mum.

Let God In

In the darkest of our hours
In the ever changing light
Let God’s Love embrace you
Let His guidance be your sight

Among all the struggling souls
On this world and the next
Let God’s Grace restore you
From all things hexed

There is within our being
A light that shines forlorn
Waiting for the wisdom within us
To be nurtured and reborn

In every ounce of trouble
There’s a clue to who we are
Leading onto greatness
That’s so near and yet so far

I invite the ever present
I invite the yet unclear
I invite the many masters
To stay close and to be near

Let’s kick this evolution
That we all can feel is naught
Not conducive to the outcome
For which we have been taught

It’s just a fleeting moment
It’s coming to that place
Where we can all delight
In all things that we face

Face off bad emotions
Kick them firmly out the door
Don’t let them keep us bounded
To things we want no more

Let us prepare the welcome;
Realise our sin;
Put a smile upon our dial;
And Let God In!

https://gailsingle.wordpress.com/2017/01/12/let-god-in/

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Inspiration

Scrap Metal Bug Collection by Jason Alexander

LIFE

Life’s an experience
I’m sure that you know
But how do we continue to grow?

By living a life
So live it right now
Not tomorrow or Wednesday
Right now that is how

How to be free from the concerns that we show?
They really really really must go

They ground us and hold us
From greater pursuits
They even can have us all dressed up in suits!

Suits to suit others
Not ours at all
When will we ever remember the call

The call to our greatness
That’s really all

This time like no-other
Can help you relate
To having a go at the things that can’t date

Like laughing and crying
And smiling too
These are worthwhile things to pursue

Take a look at a child
And then you will know
This is the very thing we should sow

Sow in some fun
Some happiness and love
Mix it all in
And don’t use a glove!

Get down and get dirty
From this day till the next
Then maybe we won’t be so perplexed

https://gailsingle.wordpress.com/my-poems/life/

Healing family

This week I have been confronted with some of the demons from the past.

My 25 year old daughter ‘reminded’ me – ‘reminded’ because I had blocked it, or not been in a place to hear it correctly at that time, about being interfered with by one of her siblings when she was a child. She rightly believes that this has played a major role in her life to date. She said that I told her, at the time, that children explore their bodies in such ways when they are growing up – which I do believe, but that doesn’t stop us making it a shameful experience.

It left me feeling that I had not done enough to protect her, being a working mother of five – four boys and one daughter. I have felt that for a long time. She chose to distance herself from me at a very young age; and, while usually we have a civil relationship, it is obviously one of facade. She is prone to rage and sadness at the slightest glitch in support of her.

So, the questions remain: Am I a bad mother? How do I go about healing – the relationship and my daughters’ self-esteem? Is it my job now that she is grown?

The answers are: All mothers have their own injuries that make them behave and parent in a less than ‘good parent’ way. We are too focused on our own needs rather than putting our energies into the people who depend on them for their nurturing.

I can go about repairing our relationship, and consequently show her the way to healing, by my example; and then by the results she can see and feel.

Because I believe that this earth existence is just the start of our soul’s journey, we have an eternity to continue to grow and heal with a firm desire to live in love. Face what needs to be faced and allow what comes to indicate to us what we need to repair or embrace. Our lives will give us that gift if we allow and accept.

If I had not denied my own damage then there would not have been that imprint left on her, and she would not now be confused and frightened by where her life is taking her; she would not be going about damaging herself and others in her approaches to relationship; and would be more gentle and loving, strong, secure and encouraged by her existence. So, yes, it is my job to ensure that I can do all that I can to assist, not only her, but myself, to go through the process of forgiving and repenting all things that have been buzzing around me for the entirety of my existence.

Not only do I owe it to her, I also owe it to my son who’s behaviour as a young age would have left him ashamed and confused. I believe that it has left him arrogant in an attempt to hide the less powerful emotions in the belief that this is what he needs to do to have the life he thinks he wants – that society tells him he deserves.

Of course we deserve a wonderful life but we need to do the work to make it so. And we are told by society that having whatever we want, and doing whatever it takes to get it is the only way to go – no matter the effects on other people around us – even our children.

You can see how this sort of selfish, arrogant behaviour will continually perpetuate this same damage into generations to come – causing crushing effects on body, mind and soul.

The time is now to do the work and strive towards an existence that is hugely beneficial to, not only our loved ones, but to the world as a whole.

Go with God. I have for some time now and have benefited greatly.

FORGIVE

Forgive from your heart
Let It heal your life
Nothing can hold you
Like a fair bit of strife

The hardest to get through
Are the things that We do
Known only by us
Yet they can still puss

They fester and grow
And live on all the while
With each new day.
It gets harder to smile

Your greatness is here now
Lets show them all how
When love is involved
Much can be solved

The love that you are
Lays buried deep inside
Just waiting for the hate to subside

Loved ones cannot help you
Only you can mend
All the hurt and despair that you still defend

Your spirit is calling
For you to be free
Forgiveness is golden
And I’m sure you’ll agree
There is nothing nicer
That you’d like to be

So forgive and move on now
And then you will see
All the good things that life brings
Known to more than just me


He Is Come — Notes Along The Way

Then, there is loveAnd the taste of lifelike wild honey on my tongueSweet, fragrant and intense,An exotic, unnamed song Untested, bold horizons begin to clap against my eyesEnchanted sunlit gardens Dawning, dappled skies A world revealed, existingalongside human misery and shame,Eternal, always offeredshould we just release all pain The promise of our futureis greater than […]

via He Is Come — Notes Along The Way

For Jeffrey

I met Jeffrey for a short time recently when we attended Graham’s 50th birthday celebration.

I found him to be a very gentle soul but I could detect the trouble that lay within, as it does with the majority of us in one form or another.  Sometimes when we’re not being authentic to the soul God created, we can get lost to the darker thoughts that we catch when we least expect them.

I urge you to hold onto the belief that Jeffrey isn’t lost to you or us.

He still exists in another form and dimension that we can’t quite understand or appreciate.

We get trapped in the teachings from this planet which can lead to what we’re facing in Jeffrey’s current situation.

It is my firm belief that Jeffrey will be allowed to rest and convalesce for a time before he will need to face his demons once again and continue to attempt to reach higher limits of appreciation and acceptance of self and others.

We can help him with the earnest and loving belief that everyone can, and will, heal the damage we’ve denied with our desires to do so for ourselves – the cord that connects us cannot be broken. It’s just a matter of how long we defend all of our hurt and make it a part of us instead of embracing it’s ability to indicate our ‘sins’ – meaning simply “missing the mark”, in this context “missing the mark of love” (God’s love,  not human love) and choose to acknowledge and release.

It’s a powerful gift we can give to, not only our nearest and dearest, and ourselves, but in fact, the entire universe.

I am comforted in my knowledge that when we let God in and walk the narrow path he has created for us all things can rapidly progress to a state beyond Nirvana – something most think of as the ultimate location.

This is a poem that I created with the friends that surround me and assist me to weather the storms in my own life.  I’d like to share it in the hope that all can find solace in the words and in the hope that the woes that caused Jeffrey to such desperation will never again darken the doors of those we love or anyone that exists today on this earth.

LET GOD IN

In the darkest of our hours
In the ever changing light
Let God’s Love embrace you
Let His guidance be your sight

Among all the struggling souls
On this world and the next
Let God’s Grace restore you
From all things hexed

There is within our being
A light that shines forlorn
Waiting for the wisdom within us
To be nurtured and reborn

In every ounce of trouble
There’s a clue to who we are
Leading onto greatness
That’s so near and yet so far

I invite the ever present
I invite the yet unclear
I invite the many masters
To stay close and to be near

Let’s kick this evolution
That we all can feel is naught
Not conducive to the outcome
For which we have been taught

It’s just a fleeting moment
It’s coming to that place
Where we can all delight
In all things that we face

Face off bad emotions
Kick them firmly out the door
Don’t let them keep us bounded
To things we want no more

Let us prepare the welcome;
Realise our sin;
Put a smile upon our dial;
And Let God In!

Letter to Kate

Hello my darling.  I just wanted to let you know what an inspiration you are to me and how you never cease to challenge and delight me with your spirit.  You have again helped me to see things in a new and better light; and have helped to uplift my soul to a new level.

Not wishing to trigger you, but, my prayers were answers over the last week as I have been asking to be shown ways that I can help my children move through the many situations and troubling emotions they feel.

I just wasn’t prepared for the answer. The answer never comes in a pretty package, wrapped in the finest ribbon as we would like, because the issues come from a place of, I’m going to say, ‘sin’ – sin meaning ‘missing the mark’ in the pure sense of the word. ‘Missing the mark of love’ in this context.

So, if you take your example of a tree falling in the forest.  I’m sure you will agree it IS felt throughout the universe with or without any physical knowledge of the event. That is how I see how I am able to assist in the area of helping you guys navigate through life.

I can stand in front of the tree and try to stop it falling; I can develop an elaborate system of supporting the tree; I can deny that the tree is in danger of falling, or has fallen; I can watch as the tree slowly but surely is destroyed by circumstances surrounding it; or I can do the only real thing that will assist the tree in maintaining it’s beautiful existence in the long term. I can look at me and see how I am contributing to it’s demise. Then I can take the appropriate measures to do all that I can to correct those things that are in error in me. In that way I will be able to be a part of the solution to its survival and growth in the most effective way.

You have shown me that we are all connected and there is not just one person required to save the tree. I had thought that I could push on and in the end save ‘our’ world. No, we need to help each other to reach that place where we can feel sure that we are a part of something bigger and that we are being supported, admired and applauded. The rest is automatic.

You are one of my favourite trees, and I will do everything that I can to assist you and your desires.

So thank you for being the wonderful person that you are as we share in love together.

Your, growing in humility, mother.

IN THE SHADOWS

In the shadows of my life
I see wisdom shining through
Hidden deep inside me
Just like there is in you

This wisdom can remind me
Of all the things that I am
All the things that excite me
All the things that I can

I can decide my future
I can love and appreciate
I can deeply and completely
Enjoy everything that’s great

Like breathing and relaxing
In my comfy bed at night
Like revelling in my playground
The streets paved with life
Like having love surround me
My friends and family
Like everything I ask for
Coming surely as can be

I work and I worry
I wonder and I think
I exercise my free will
And sometimes I forget to blink

Blinking for a moment
Is what brings me clarity
Making everything SO clear
It seems like charity

In the shadow of my life
Lurks the answers that are best
If I listen and be still
I’ll get the blueprint to my quest

“In the Shadows” with Gail Single