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Healing family

This week I have been confronted with some of the demons from the past.

My 25 year old daughter ‘reminded’ me – ‘reminded’ because I had blocked it, or not been in a place to hear it correctly at that time, about being interfered with by one of her siblings when she was a child. She rightly believes that this has played a major role in her life to date. She said that I told her, at the time, that children explore their bodies in such ways when they are growing up – which I do believe, but that doesn’t stop us making it a shameful experience.

It left me feeling that I had not done enough to protect her, being a working mother of five – four boys and one daughter. I have felt that for a long time. She chose to distance herself from me at a very young age; and, while usually we have a civil relationship, it is obviously one of facade. She is prone to rage and sadness at the slightest glitch in support of her.

So, the questions remain: Am I a bad mother? How do I go about healing – the relationship and my daughters’ self-esteem? Is it my job now that she is grown?

The answers are: All mothers have their own injuries that make them behave and parent in a less than ‘good parent’ way. We are too focused on our own needs rather than putting our energies into the people who depend on them for their nurturing.

I can go about repairing our relationship, and consequently show her the way to healing, by my example; and then by the results she can see and feel.

Because I believe that this earth existence is just the start of our soul’s journey, we have an eternity to continue to grow and heal with a firm desire to live in love. Face what needs to be faced and allow what comes to indicate to us what we need to repair or embrace. Our lives will give us that gift if we allow and accept.

If I had not denied my own damage then there would not have been that imprint left on her, and she would not now be confused and frightened by where her life is taking her; she would not be going about damaging herself and others in her approaches to relationship; and would be more gentle and loving, strong, secure and encouraged by her existence. So, yes, it is my job to ensure that I can do all that I can to assist, not only her, but myself, to go through the process of forgiving and repenting all things that have been buzzing around me for the entirety of my existence.

Not only do I owe it to her, I also owe it to my son who’s behaviour as a young age would have left him ashamed and confused. I believe that it has left him arrogant in an attempt to hide the less powerful emotions in the belief that this is what he needs to do to have the life he thinks he wants – that society tells him he deserves.

Of course we deserve a wonderful life but we need to do the work to make it so. And we are told by society that having whatever we want, and doing whatever it takes to get it is the only way to go – no matter the effects on other people around us – even our children.

You can see how this sort of selfish, arrogant behaviour will continually perpetuate this same damage into generations to come – causing crushing effects on body, mind and soul.

The time is now to do the work and strive towards an existence that is hugely beneficial to, not only our loved ones, but to the world as a whole.

Go with God. I have for some time now and have benefited greatly.

FORGIVE

Forgive from your heart
Let It heal your life
Nothing can hold you
Like a fair bit of strife

The hardest to get through
Are the things that We do
Known only by us
Yet they can still puss

They fester and grow
And live on all the while
With each new day.
It gets harder to smile

Your greatness is here now
Lets show them all how
When love is involved
Much can be solved

The love that you are
Lays buried deep inside
Just waiting for the hate to subside

Loved ones cannot help you
Only you can mend
All the hurt and despair that you still defend

Your spirit is calling
For you to be free
Forgiveness is golden
And I’m sure you’ll agree
There is nothing nicer
That you’d like to be

So forgive and move on now
And then you will see
All the good things that life brings
Known to more than just me


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He Is Come — Notes Along The Way

Then, there is loveAnd the taste of lifelike wild honey on my tongueSweet, fragrant and intense,An exotic, unnamed song Untested, bold horizons begin to clap against my eyesEnchanted sunlit gardens Dawning, dappled skies A world revealed, existingalongside human misery and shame,Eternal, always offeredshould we just release all pain The promise of our futureis greater than […]

via He Is Come — Notes Along The Way

For Jeffrey

I met Jeffrey for a short time recently when we attended Graham’s 50th birthday celebration.

I found him to be a very gentle soul but I could detect the trouble that lay within, as it does with the majority of us in one form or another.  Sometimes when we’re not being authentic to the soul God created, we can get lost to the darker thoughts that we catch when we least expect them.

I urge you to hold onto the belief that Jeffrey isn’t lost to you or us.

He still exists in another form and dimension that we can’t quite understand or appreciate.

We get trapped in the teachings from this planet which can lead to what we’re facing in Jeffrey’s current situation.

It is my firm belief that Jeffrey will be allowed to rest and convalesce for a time before he will need to face his demons once again and continue to attempt to reach higher limits of appreciation and acceptance of self and others.

We can help him with the earnest and loving belief that everyone can, and will, heal the damage we’ve denied with our desires to do so for ourselves – the cord that connects us cannot be broken. It’s just a matter of how long we defend all of our hurt and make it a part of us instead of embracing it’s ability to indicate our ‘sins’ – meaning simply “missing the mark”, in this context “missing the mark of love” (God’s love,  not human love) and choose to acknowledge and release.

It’s a powerful gift we can give to, not only our nearest and dearest, and ourselves, but in fact, the entire universe.

I am comforted in my knowledge that when we let God in and walk the narrow path he has created for us all things can rapidly progress to a state beyond Nirvana – something most think of as the ultimate location.

This is a poem that I created with the friends that surround me and assist me to weather the storms in my own life.  I’d like to share it in the hope that all can find solace in the words and in the hope that the woes that caused Jeffrey to such desperation will never again darken the doors of those we love or anyone that exists today on this earth.

LET GOD IN

In the darkest of our hours
In the ever changing light
Let God’s Love embrace you
Let His guidance be your sight

Among all the struggling souls
On this world and the next
Let God’s Grace restore you
From all things hexed

There is within our being
A light that shines forlorn
Waiting for the wisdom within us
To be nurtured and reborn

In every ounce of trouble
There’s a clue to who we are
Leading onto greatness
That’s so near and yet so far

I invite the ever present
I invite the yet unclear
I invite the many masters
To stay close and to be near

Let’s kick this evolution
That we all can feel is naught
Not conducive to the outcome
For which we have been taught

It’s just a fleeting moment
It’s coming to that place
Where we can all delight
In all things that we face

Face off bad emotions
Kick them firmly out the door
Don’t let them keep us bounded
To things we want no more

Let us prepare the welcome;
Realise our sin;
Put a smile upon our dial;
And Let God In!

Letter to Kate

Hello my darling.  I just wanted to let you know what an inspiration you are to me and how you never cease to challenge and delight me with your spirit.  You have again helped me to see things in a new and better light; and have helped to uplift my soul to a new level.

Not wishing to trigger you, but, my prayers were answers over the last week as I have been asking to be shown ways that I can help my children move through the many situations and troubling emotions they feel.

I just wasn’t prepared for the answer. The answer never comes in a pretty package, wrapped in the finest ribbon as we would like, because the issues come from a place of, I’m going to say, ‘sin’ – sin meaning ‘missing the mark’ in the pure sense of the word. ‘Missing the mark of love’ in this context.

So, if you take your example of a tree falling in the forest.  I’m sure you will agree it IS felt throughout the universe with or without any physical knowledge of the event. That is how I see how I am able to assist in the area of helping you guys navigate through life.

I can stand in front of the tree and try to stop it falling; I can develop an elaborate system of supporting the tree; I can deny that the tree is in danger of falling, or has fallen; I can watch as the tree slowly but surely is destroyed by circumstances surrounding it; or I can do the only real thing that will assist the tree in maintaining it’s beautiful existence in the long term. I can look at me and see how I am contributing to it’s demise. Then I can take the appropriate measures to do all that I can to correct those things that are in error in me. In that way I will be able to be a part of the solution to its survival and growth in the most effective way.

You have shown me that we are all connected and there is not just one person required to save the tree. I had thought that I could push on and in the end save ‘our’ world. No, we need to help each other to reach that place where we can feel sure that we are a part of something bigger and that we are being supported, admired and applauded. The rest is automatic.

You are one of my favourite trees, and I will do everything that I can to assist you and your desires.

So thank you for being the wonderful person that you are as we share in love together.

Your, growing in humility, mother.

IN THE SHADOWS

In the shadows of my life
I see wisdom shining through
Hidden deep inside me
Just like there is in you

This wisdom can remind me
Of all the things that I am
All the things that excite me
All the things that I can

I can decide my future
I can love and appreciate
I can deeply and completely
Enjoy everything that’s great

Like breathing and relaxing
In my comfy bed at night
Like revelling in my playground
The streets paved with life
Like having love surround me
My friends and family
Like everything I ask for
Coming surely as can be

I work and I worry
I wonder and I think
I exercise my free will
And sometimes I forget to blink

Blinking for a moment
Is what brings me clarity
Making everything SO clear
It seems like charity

In the shadow of my life
Lurks the answers that are best
If I listen and be still
I’ll get the blueprint to my quest

“In the Shadows” with Gail Single

Congrats! Nice job.

Congratulations on the discovery of your talent. Working with others in an inspired way towards a harmonious universe.

More work is yet to be done on connecting to emotions in the most thorough way. Finding within yourself the necessary allowance will greatly benefit your soul progress. ‘Little by little’ is the current allowance. ‘To the ends of the earth!’ is the desired position.

Many are developing along these lines and many more will join. You can look forward to easier, and more, opportunities to engage passions and ideas, and experience more acceptance about that which you speak.

Compassion for what is talked about as ‘facades’ is a way to assist those in such a state – as all are to various degrees; and a prayer to God can greatly assist the general demeanor around that area. Prayer for God’s Love

Life is not meant to be such a chore as is being experienced by so many on earth. Life as a human being should be such as a child. Joyful, playful, inquisitive and astonishing. The existence many are experiencing is a more hellish lifestyle. Impure, false and misleading. Unfriendly to most  – even to the person themselves.

Love for your soulmate; the other half of your soul, is a worthwhile pursuit and, in fact, a necessary desire for you to have in the larger picture of ‘all that is’.

God is adoring of all of her children and does not possess any form of sadness, that you may presume is felt, in relation to your activities. She knows that hitting the mark of love is a learning curve and is why we’re here. We’re here to experience with others all levels of love.

When the masks are lifted; everyone shows their cards, all is revealed and we will be astounded by what is uncovered in the grand unveiling of who you really are.

Nothing can be as inspiring as the truth of you, and the mountains you can climb in your endeavours as the greatest of God’s creations.

In love and with much rejoicing for your arrival to the path of least resistance and beyond.

LIFE

Life’s an experience
I’m sure that you know
But how do we continue to grow?

By living a life
So live it right now
Not tomorrow or Wednesday
Right now that is how

How to be free from the concerns that we show?
They really really really must go

They ground us and hold us
From greater pursuits
They even can have us all dressed up in suits!

Suits to suit others
Not ours at all
When will we ever remember the call

The call to our greatness
That’s really all

This time like no-other
Can help you relate
To having a go at the things that can’t date

Like laughing and crying
And smiling too
These are worthwhile things to pursue

Take a look at a child
And then you will know
This is the very thing we should sow

Sow in some fun
Some happiness and love
Mix it all in
And don’t use a glove!

Get down and get dirty
From this day till the next
Then maybe we won’t be so perplexed

“Life” by Gail Single

In response……

…..to 10 Early signs of spiritual awakening

Through my filters……

Although it could be considered as one person’s journey, a journey is assisted by many souls of varying conditions and relevant to that person’s desires and condition.

I, Swedenborg, became a seeker, an allower, a transcriber, a soul seeking truth.

Because I was a scientist it was easy for me to make the correlation and transition from spiritual to factual. Now, allowing for the word of God openly, it would appear that I had suddenly transformed. However I would consider it an allowing, a release from the structured education I had received throughout my life to that point.

We are all children in fact, and all of God’s concepts and laws are created so that all can interpret and see no matter their age or condition.

The activities during my waking hours was a catalyst to the dreams and experiences that I was having in the spirit world.

Because I didn’t know what was happening I remained open and inquisitive to unfoldings that were happening for me and around me.

No. 10 – Sweating

The stuckness came from more earthbound knowledge not allowing the insights I was having to be accepted fully. My bodily form was reacting in it’s way to the conflict that was happening.

Temptation is an accurate word to describe the struggle of my earthly addictions and those I was learning from my spirit friends.

The struggle was, as I now know, a prayer to God. Forgiveness begins with ourselves and then easily extends to others through humility and releasing of the established tendencies of worship to learned knowledge; and the making irrelevant of our feelings. As I have always been pursuant of my desires, I had no trouble in the aspect of wishing (asking) for knowledge and instruction. Feeling on the other hand was an area of the unknown to the mind and a larger pursuit at that time. Makes you sweat and more!

No. 9 Weeping

Weeping is the further release of emotions that lay dormant and even unknown throughout my existence.

The other life to which I refer is the life of the spirit world. What seemed at the time to be the kingdom of heaven opened up, and continues to open up, to experiences and creations of profound understatement in those writings of times past. This situation has been made available to all of the souls that God has created. The situation of creating places/dimensions that perfectly match our current condition of love. The release of emotions – sometimes weeping – is the way to ascend the dimensions and become a soul of a higher and higher love condition with the explicit goal of becoming at-one with God. A state, we can only estimate, that will forever continue to grow, infinitely and forever.

Henceforth, not all souls find themselves in a place of pure upliftment but can be transgressed to the place that matches their condition of love. Hellish-like places that can leave those souls believing that the ‘God bashes’ were right after all and their after-life will be spent in such places as our minds could only fear.

It is unfortunate that the human condition and teachings often leads us to believe that God has not created for us the means to transcend a condition that would place us in these dimensions – which we have created for ourselves through the very mechanism that assists us to rise to higher dimensions. At no time is there not another being ready to assist us with more relevant information to the raising of our condition and therefore place of existing in in this unknown area of our experience.

I would like all to know that all are worthy, there are none who are unworthy. God created us all the same with the exception of our areas of interests – our personalities. He also gave us all free-will which inevitably gets us into trouble, but which is a way of learning that is far in exceedance to any other I have witnessed or participated in. Once we realise the power of this gift from God, we will surely make use of it in more loving and caring ways than has been our tendency in the past. It’s not a big step, really. We all know what is right and what is wrong, instinctively. We don’t always choose wisely because of injuries to our souls we have sustained along the way and from injuries, in fact, inherited from a steady stream of injuries in those who care for us from the start of our journey.

No. 8 Involuntary Thoughts

Everyone can do/does this.

No. 7 Seeing The Dead

The reasons for delays in communication occur when we are not ready for the answers. Some of this information was not directly from my relatives as I had determined at the time, but from other spirits sometimes presenting themselves as my relative with the intention of delivering their message to humanity through me. This occurs because of the condition of the person receiving the message, in this case myself, and the sympathic emotion of the spirit delivering the message. It has been my experience that people in the spirit world often believe that they have all of the answers, as we do so here on earth, yet often miss the mark of God’s Truth and therefore not as pure as we would desire.

No. 6 Double thoughts

Thoughts are dropped into our heads/brains/mind from various beings and mingle with our own. I was aware that the thoughts that I was experiencing at that time were not in alignment with the Truths that I had begun to realise. This happens when we begin the process of awakening (as some would call it) by spirits in a lesser condition wishing to hamper our progress for any number of reasons.

“Through Jesus Christ for the Lord” is the more accurate of the two stances I have espoused. Of course, my conviction now is that Jesus ‘Christ’ (a person who has been Christed/at-one with God) is the son of God as we also are sons and daughters of God. The title of Lord is a redundant term and is not in line with the structure of the relationship that exists. We are all children of God and He/She is our parent. ‘He/She’ as She has, within her personality, male and female qualities of which we also do to varying degrees.

No. 5 Gladness

No. 4 The usual tremors/chills

The trembling is the releasing of fears.

No. 3 Prostrated

No. 2 Pretanatural sleep

No. 1 Shuddering

The body in the human form is the expression of our spiritual and our spirit bodies experiences.

The majority of these experiences were with lower level spirits and not with the higher level and celestial beings with whom I am now acquainted. Again a reflection of my current level of development from the state of love.

Although I was also acquainted with spirits in a higher condition, my fears would often keep me in a place of destruction.

It is most important that the greatest consideration is to be given to our soul which envelops our spirit and human bodies without form. It is the pure form that God created and allowed for the placement into the bodies that we don as us. The experiencing and releasing of emotions that have harmed our souls and continue to create our experiences by attracting to us, often, things unwanted yet enlightening in their nature. The thing is to take notice, do not resist, feel the emotions they invoke – cry, scream, shiver, punch, kick, whatever it takes (just not at or to another soul) and release all errors and injuries to the soul to experience upliftment that you cannot imagine.

It is furthermore relevant to note that due to the vibrational effect, the betterment of your own soul will have a powerful effect on all and everything in the universe.

Shake, rattle and roll!

LET GOD IN

In the darkest of our hours
In the ever changing light
Let God’s Love embrace you
Let His guidance be your sight

Among all the struggling souls
On this world and the next
Let God’s Grace restore you
From all things hexed

There is within our being
A light that shines forlorn
Waiting for the wisdom within us
To be nurtured and reborn

In every ounce of trouble
There’s a clue to who we are
Leading onto greatness
That’s so near and yet so far

I invite the ever present
I invite the yet unclear
I invite the many masters
To stay close and to be near

Let’s kick this evolution
That we all can feel is naught
Not conducive to the outcome
For which we have been taught

It’s just a fleeting moment
It’s coming to that place
Where we can all delight
In all things that we face

Face off bad emotions
Kick them firmly out the door
Don’t let them keep us bounded
To things we want no more

Let us prepare the welcome;
Realise our sin;
Put a smile upon our dial;
And Let God In!

‘Let God In’ by Gail Single

Ahhh…..Facade. Sadly, we must part.

[00:12:49.06] A.J.: ……we lie to ourselves; we lie to others; we present a lie. Quite frequently you’re feeling, inside, one thing but you say another thing to a person. Frequently, that happens……. Somebody comes up and asks you ‘are you doing this or are you doing that?’ You assess whether you might get attacked; or you might get abused; or you might get whatever saying what you really want to say, and so you don’t say it. Right? It’s presenting a lie to others. The facade justifies lies constantly…..It’s willing to kill for itself. You’re harming people every single moment of the day, even, for the protection of this facade. Because the terror and the pain, the false belief that you can’t cope with both of those things, just causes you to feel that lieing is justified.

Excerpt from “Developing my loving self” seminar

IN THE SHADOWS

In the shadows of my life
I see wisdom shining through
Hidden deep inside me
Just like there is in you

This wisdom can remind me
Of all the things that I am
All the things that excite me
All the things that I can

I can decide my future
I can love and appreciate
I can deeply and completely
Enjoy everything that’s great

Like breathing and relaxing
In my comfy bed at night
Like revelling in my playground
The streets paved with life
Like having love surround me
My friends and family
Like everything I ask for
Coming surely as can be

I work and I worry
I wonder and I think
I exercise my free will
And sometimes I forget to blink

Blinking for a moment
Is what brings me clarity
Making everything So clear
It seems like charity

In the shadow of my life
Lurks the answers that are best
If I listen and be still
I’ll get the blueprint to my quest

‘In the Shadows’ by Gail Single